“I used to think that we can have almost anything we want from life, that it’s just a question of organization. But now I’m beginning to think that we have to make a choice more often than we’d like. The important thing is to make sure that it’s our choice, no one else’s, and that we make it honestly.”
- Adam Dalgliesh in Death of an Expert Witness, by P.D. James
I just can. not. fit it all in.
After being sick most of December and having some set backs in January, I have been feeling overwhelmed with the daily stuff that life is made of. I want to blog… but then when it comes down to it, I’d rather read a good book, soak in the tub, or stare at a blank wall.
I keep thinking I need to write in my journal for M – all these things I want to remember – things I want him to remember – words of wisdom… that sort of thing. But well, when it comes down to it… it just hasn’t been happening. (I hope that doesn’t make me a bad mother, because I’m afraid this is just the way it’s going to be for a while.)
I’m trying to organize some trouble spots in our home, our time, and the two pack rats I live with. Or trying to at least live with them without going crazy. Ok, more honestly, trying to figure out how to throw things away without them noticing. ;)
I’ve been rediscovering my passion for sewing and crocheting and creating beautiful things with my hands. I’ve even taken up loom-knitting. I am a crocheter through and through, but I do understand that a knitted something-or-other is nice to have sometimes too. ;)
I’m trying to work out the struggle inside that I’m having with facing these final months of small-childhood for M… the last of our days completely together; this time when I can see so clearly into his heart and mind.
I’m in the process of opening an Etsy store (don’t hold me to this, I’m only mentioning it in the hopes that it will actually make me work on it), revamping my blog, and creating a new site to house the free printables I offer. I’m working on an Easter e-book with a friend, and creating some reading helps for M’s “school time”. I’m putting together a space unit and an ocean unit, and thinking about plans for learning about how the human body works.
I think there are some reviews I’m supposed to be working on too.
And then there are friends, family, daily housekeeping, raising a small boy who wants my every minute, errands, and social events.
Sheesh. But seriously, how do you make choices to not do some of these things? They all seem so necessary… or else are things I really enjoy! I’ve realized that I’m so busy trying to organize everything into something manageable that I’m losing peace and joy in the struggle. Sometimes choices have to be made!
What do you do when you feel overwhelmed? How do you cut back, or even choose the areas in which to cut back?
There are so many interesting things I want to share with you, so I’m going to try to get back into blogging. I’m hoping to share the basics of the reading program we are going through, and our arts and crafts activities a couple of times a month. I want to write about all the amazingly good books we’ve been reading and how we are fitting more books than ever into our days, our new chore system (new as in started 6 months ago, but just not written about yet), and lots of other things… look for some good announcements soon about a few of the things I’m working on. :)
Thanks for reading, and letting me vent (I am amazed to see that my readership has gone up over the past few months instead of down – you are all so appreciated!).
Here’s to getting back into the swing of things!